Thank you for sharing your vulnerability. I think we cannot move forward without being vulnerable. It connects you to the rest of the world.
Here I am, binging one season of survivor after another. Using my addiction to numb myself by any eletronical device I can get my hands on. Using this cycle to escape my repeating feelings of shame and failure. One contestant resonates with me so strongly, I actually look him up to see how he is doing now. I couldn’t be happier to see the path you chose. And at the same moment you reminded me the truth which I forgot million times over. The only play I have, the only way to happiness is to give myself to it. To the constant work, self reflection, honesty and vulnerability.
Thank you for the great advice! I needed to hear some encouraging words. I also need to start looking at things in my life differently. You have really helped me to put things in perspective. Thanks again and take care!
Your concept of shadow work has definitely given me a nugget to chew on. I'd love to hear more about how you've learned to integrate your shadows more skillfully.
Just discovering your blog after rewatching your speech about Tony at tribal and going down an internet rabbit hole. Not only are you brilliant and passionate, but you truly have a way with words. It’s a gift and I’m glad I found your blog. Keep being you and know that authenticity like yours is hard to come by these days. I admire you dude
I can relate so much! Love your post. You really give me new insight into my own demons. Being addicted to tobacco (cigarettes) and marijuana myself. I understand what you're going through. Over the years I've just learned to except my addiction and try to control my use. I smoke between 6 - 10 cigarettes a day. Down from a pack a day. Marijuana use, 3 - 4 times a week, down from daily use. I use tobacco (cigarettes) to calm me, and they help stay focused. Weed use for my anxiety. Every time I try to quit either one, I have my anxiety, nervousness, as well as lack of staying focused gets way worse. I've tried medications but being male and sexually active, I can't deal with the numbing side effects. So, I've just started to except my addiction to tobacco and marijuana as something I need to control these demons. Even if they are not the healthiest options. I feel controlling my use keeps me sane, at the same time provides me with pleasure. I will follow your story on your own use closely. I'm always willing to explore new ideas and try to implement them in my life. I always tell myself I could be addicted to way worse things. Don't know if that's a good way to look at things or not. Can't wait for updates from you! You really help me to realize I'm not alone and not so different from anybody else. We all have some type of struggle in our lives. Guess it part of being human. Since no one is perfect! Very glad I found this website. You're very intelligent and insightful! Thanks! Take care!
Thanks for sharing William. Still off the tobacco and cannabis, and at 8-9 days now it's encouraging that withdrawal is over and each day is easier. You could always try planning a trip or doing something that leaves no possibility of smoking for long enough to get through withdrawal and think more clearly. Of course, addiction is super sneaky and beating it takes more than this, but it's a start, and can show you it's possible to climb out of the hole. Of course you're right that there are worse things to be addicted to, but at the same time I think that's part of what makes cannabis and tobacco so insidious. Neither is super costly in the short-term, but if you justify doing it for life based on this, they are indeed super costly in the long-term. Much love, and however your relationships with these substances unfold, wherever you're at, I hope you hold onto self-love in that place :)
Dear Reiman - you blow me away with your realness. I knew you were special when I saw you on Survivor. And even though you were putting on a show, I could see the real you. And I've been reading your blog posts and each time, it only confirms my thoughts about you. I too have dealt with many demons in my life. I won't get into specifics here. But I feel privileged to be a part of your journey. You inspire me. Keep being you Reiman. 🤗
Thank you for sharing your vulnerability. I think we cannot move forward without being vulnerable. It connects you to the rest of the world.
Here I am, binging one season of survivor after another. Using my addiction to numb myself by any eletronical device I can get my hands on. Using this cycle to escape my repeating feelings of shame and failure. One contestant resonates with me so strongly, I actually look him up to see how he is doing now. I couldn’t be happier to see the path you chose. And at the same moment you reminded me the truth which I forgot million times over. The only play I have, the only way to happiness is to give myself to it. To the constant work, self reflection, honesty and vulnerability.
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Thank you for the great advice! I needed to hear some encouraging words. I also need to start looking at things in my life differently. You have really helped me to put things in perspective. Thanks again and take care!
Cheers to choosing what's good for you.
Your concept of shadow work has definitely given me a nugget to chew on. I'd love to hear more about how you've learned to integrate your shadows more skillfully.
Just discovering your blog after rewatching your speech about Tony at tribal and going down an internet rabbit hole. Not only are you brilliant and passionate, but you truly have a way with words. It’s a gift and I’m glad I found your blog. Keep being you and know that authenticity like yours is hard to come by these days. I admire you dude
I can relate so much! Love your post. You really give me new insight into my own demons. Being addicted to tobacco (cigarettes) and marijuana myself. I understand what you're going through. Over the years I've just learned to except my addiction and try to control my use. I smoke between 6 - 10 cigarettes a day. Down from a pack a day. Marijuana use, 3 - 4 times a week, down from daily use. I use tobacco (cigarettes) to calm me, and they help stay focused. Weed use for my anxiety. Every time I try to quit either one, I have my anxiety, nervousness, as well as lack of staying focused gets way worse. I've tried medications but being male and sexually active, I can't deal with the numbing side effects. So, I've just started to except my addiction to tobacco and marijuana as something I need to control these demons. Even if they are not the healthiest options. I feel controlling my use keeps me sane, at the same time provides me with pleasure. I will follow your story on your own use closely. I'm always willing to explore new ideas and try to implement them in my life. I always tell myself I could be addicted to way worse things. Don't know if that's a good way to look at things or not. Can't wait for updates from you! You really help me to realize I'm not alone and not so different from anybody else. We all have some type of struggle in our lives. Guess it part of being human. Since no one is perfect! Very glad I found this website. You're very intelligent and insightful! Thanks! Take care!
Thanks for sharing William. Still off the tobacco and cannabis, and at 8-9 days now it's encouraging that withdrawal is over and each day is easier. You could always try planning a trip or doing something that leaves no possibility of smoking for long enough to get through withdrawal and think more clearly. Of course, addiction is super sneaky and beating it takes more than this, but it's a start, and can show you it's possible to climb out of the hole. Of course you're right that there are worse things to be addicted to, but at the same time I think that's part of what makes cannabis and tobacco so insidious. Neither is super costly in the short-term, but if you justify doing it for life based on this, they are indeed super costly in the long-term. Much love, and however your relationships with these substances unfold, wherever you're at, I hope you hold onto self-love in that place :)
Dear Reiman - you blow me away with your realness. I knew you were special when I saw you on Survivor. And even though you were putting on a show, I could see the real you. And I've been reading your blog posts and each time, it only confirms my thoughts about you. I too have dealt with many demons in my life. I won't get into specifics here. But I feel privileged to be a part of your journey. You inspire me. Keep being you Reiman. 🤗
Thank you, Steven.